Opportunities- scary, exciting or both?

I’ve just been asked to write a very short piece in a national magazine on my degree specialism. I can write about anything I want, obviously on the same topic as the magazine, but anything in that area nonetheless. It shouldn’t be a big deal- it’ll be a tiny article, I can’t imagine a huge number of people will read it and the person who asked me probably did so as they don’t know a huge amount of people still studying in this area.

So why then is it such a big deal to me? Am I scared or excited? I’m both.

Opportunities have their way of arising…sometimes. You’re always told to just see what’s round the corner, because there always is something. But what if there actually isn’t?

I used to be a believer that everything happens for a reason. That opinion has changed over the years and I’m leaning more towards the idea now that things just happen, for no reason at all. I’d love to believe in the first notion, i really would, but there’s so much that doesn’t make sense in the world that I don’t know how it can be true.

I’d love to think this opportunity has happened for a reason- I’m meant to write an article and before I know it, it’ll lead to more writing and recognition and maybe a dream career in science communication. Sometimes, you’ll get lucky and this will happen. Sometimes you won’t and it’ll be nothing more than one opportunity. There’s no way of knowing.

It’s so hard to not get excited about something when you’re looking for that light in the mist, something to give you direction when you’re struggling to find one. So is it right to be excited? Should you be scared that it’s nothing more than one opportunity? Or should you be both?